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She didn't speak to me today...

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Which is a good thing, I guess.  But I honestly don't know why.  Although, she didn't talk to anyone at all, actually.  Not just me.  I do know that dementia can make one like that, but I have a feeling she's angry with because she keeps taking things I do and undoing them, and I told her to stop.  Like today, for instance, she took seeds I was drying on a paper towel (to plant later this month) and she put them in a plastic bag.  She did this yesterday, so I removed them from the bag and put them back on a paper towel, and today, she put them in a bag again.  So I got upset and said "Mom!  My seeds are going to rot, you can't keep putting them in a bag!  You did this yesterday, and I took them out of the bag, and yet you put them back in the bag again."  She said "I HAD TO!  The cats were playing with it!"  And no, they weren't. there were none on the floor (and mother doesn't sweep) and they never ever mess with any raw veggies have the counter.  "It doesn't matter, because putting them in a bag will rot them."  

I mean, I was upset, but not mean about it.  I just plainly stated exactly why it wasn't the right thing to do, and she hasn't spoken to me since.  She didn't even answer my son when he said hello to her.  But again, this could all be her dementia.  Who knows.  I bet tomorrow she'll make up for it with being a total chatterbox again.  Let's hope not.  For now, I am just enjoying the silence LOL.  


But if she keeps doing it, I may go have her get a cat scan again to make sure she hasn't had a recent stroke.  She has vascular dementia which is caused by strokes, so it could be that.  But I'll keep an eye on her to make sure.  


I know the more time that goes on, the more I will have to stop taking her behavior personally and instead start seeing it as a dementia issue.  But we're still not 100% there yet.  She still does things all the time on purpose, so it makes it ever so difficult to tell the difference.  I know I shouldn't have gotten annoyed with her today, I should have just reminded her nicely (or put the seeds somewhere away from her view).  But I was exasperated, since it happened twice.  But I will try to do better in the future.  And less I see her behavior as annoying, the better it will be for the both of us.  


UPDATE 9:15pm: Oh she finally talked to me.  She guilted me because I forgot her laundry in the dryer and asked me to get her laundry.  I said "Of course, I am sorry.  It's in the dryer, so it's done."  And just like she always does when I forget it, she guilts me by saying in a really meek and timid voice (though she talks about this kind of stuff all the time very loudly, so I know it's not shame that's making her put on this "meek" voice) "Well, I have no underpants.  And now I have to wear actual diapers because of that."  She tried to keep going on, to guilt me some more, but I just said "Yes, I'll get them for you," and had her move out of the way (she LOVES to block people from being able to walk down the hallway) and went to my room.  I heard her go out for a smoke, and I went back out to the kitchen and started my dinner (we ate super late tonight) and then ran down the basement to get her laundry, put it on her bed, and finished making my dinner before she got back in.  Now she can have underpants again and won't have to tell me all about her diapers anymore.  Yay.  Now back to watching The Office with Mr. Brooks. 




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