This is our beautiful girl <3  She was, and is, and will be forever loved so much.  I miss her so much.  I was up all night last night crying my eyes out, which is not like me.  But watching her lay dying all weekend after having a stroke (she saw the vet on Friday who wasn't sure if it was a stroke or not), only for us to take her yesterday (on Monday) to the vet to have her put down while we held her...it was just too much.  I can't write about this right now.  Or I'll never stop crying.  

Today my mom made the joke at dinnertime "Someone go get D."  Referring to her.  As though her death is something to kid about.  But that's my mom for ya.  I grew up my entire life asking for the pepper at the dinner table only for her to say "Pepper?  He's dead."  I mean, the dog had been dead at least ten years she was still saying that stupid joke.  I fucking hate her jokes.  They aren't in the least funny.  

Now back to worldbuilding the world I am creating for my story instead of thinking about my dog.  I have to sleep tonight.  

RIP Sweet Girl.  You were so fucking awesome <3