She's been annoying ever since her meds have changed back to normal.  Why did her doctor even lower them to begin with?  He met her for the first time and said "How are you feeling?  Good?  Then we'll just lower these meds right here..." without even asking her if she wanted to.  And when we went back and I said she needed her meds back up to normal, he said "Why did I lower them to begin with?"  I was like "Your answer is a good as mine.  I have no idea.  They were working and you just decided to do it."  This doctor is soooooo weird.  He can't remember anything and never writes anything down.  And he agreed with me that AI is great for diagnosing.  I was like...I sure hope you're not using it in your practice, or, if so, please be checking the sources LOL  I didn't say that, but uh yeah.  

Anyways, she's been annoying, getting angry a couple times, which is now unheard of for her.  It's nice she's so quiet about stuff.  But the other day she had a doctor's appointment with the same doctor...we JUST went to see him less than a month ago, so I cancelled the appointment.  Not only that, there was no way we'd get to his office by the time we'd drop my hubby off to work, so yeah.  She had a fucking meltdown.  Why?  We JUST saw him.  She was like "THIS IS THE APPOINTMENT WHERE THEY CHECK MY A1C!!!!"  She gives ZERO shits about her health.  ZERO.  She's just making up a reason to be angry.  I said "Ma, you don't need a doctor's appointment to check your A1C, they can just order that."  That seemed to calm her, but god, why does she get so pissy when she feels good?  She's also been pissy lately about her medicine, screaming "AM I GOING TO GET MY MEDS TODAY???"  from the dinner table.  I said "They're right there."  She screamed "WHERE?!"  I said "Look behind you."  "Oh, you left them up there!"  I replied "Ma, that's where I always put them, every single week."  I am not prepared for this level of her dementia, if that's what's happening.  She's either reverting, because she feels good, or her dementia is getting worse.  Last night she did the same thing, asked me for her meds.  I said "Don't you have any??"  "No!"  I said "Well, every week, you take out the night meds and leave me your med container and I refill them in the evening and and put them out for the morning.  Why did you give them to me today, and not yesterday?"  "Because there were meds in them!"  I said "But that's what we do every single week."  She ignored me and said "Am I going to get my meds tonight??"  I then explained how she needs to give them to me the day before again, and ignored her question.  I have no idea if she understood me or not, but I gathered her pills together and had my husband give her her nightly meds, and she said "Oh, this isn't necessary, you didn't have to do this right now."  Good grief, I wanted to scream.  

But this shit bores me.  Her behavior getting bad when she feels good.  I am tired of it.  Who the fuck on earth acts like an asshole when they feel well, but acts sweet as pie when she feels horrible???  That's so weird.  I swear, this woman is a backwards alien and makes no sense.  I want a life where I can talk about the good stuff and the amazing stuff.  Granted, good and amazing things have been happening, too, but I just need to make my life be more of that instead of this.  Because this shit is getting old and I am just so bored of people treating me like shit.  

I just want a break.  When my mother feels bad and acts good?  My son's BPD acts up and he acts bad.  When he feels better and acts good, my mother feels better and acts bad.  I AM SO TIRED.  I need a fucking break.  My hubby is off work this week, so we can go places to relax a bit.  Our anniversary is in a week, so maybe we can do something fun.