I've not been updating here since my GERD has been out of control and I've not been able to eat too much for the past bit again.  It's better than it was back at the beginning of December when I had food poisoning, but it's still not fun.  And now my medication is causing my gums to itch and the only next thing is an endoscopy and surgery.  Which I am fine with, as long as they can do it asap.  So, I got a new gastro doctor and we're waiting to see what he says to do next.  Hopefully I can get scheduled for the endoscopy ASAP, if not, I will have to see if I can go somewhere out of town.  My town sucks for doctors, as all of ours retired and our state has one of the highest malpractice insurance rates in the country, so no new doctors are coming in.  We need to move (for many reasons).  

So, yeah, I've been too anxious to care about much else and on some days, my anxiety is so out of control that I feel like I am going insane.  Though I'm a bit better with that now, and hopefully it stays that way.  

My mother's dementia is getting worse, so her narcissism seems to be better.  But since I don't listen to her phone calls anymore, I really have no idea if that's true or not.  But then again, I don't care.  Also, I start back up with my therapist today, so I hope that goes well.  I don't really care for her, but we'll see if she's actually helpful with my anxiety.  I hope so.  

I am trying to drink an Ensure (Walgreens brand) and ugh.  Eating anything is hard from all the bloat and stomach burning, especially since I tried to drink it too fast.  I just want to get better and have all of this go away.  

Okay, that's it for now.  So much fun.  Yay.